Wednesday, April 27, 2016. I can look back and remember the YEARS when a thought would come to me for a post and then I simply sat down and wrote that post out without effort. I hope that process returns to me once my move this fall is complete and I am home again at last.
In my life right now thoughts tumble, stumble, swarm and bifurcate into tangential ideas that seemingly have no end. I see in my mind the image of a great old tree complete with probably millions of twigs reaching out in new growth every year. How to pick out important twigs? How to separate them exactly from the branches they are growing from?
Part of my writing problems stems from the fact that I have written so many posts over the years that I KNOW contain information connected to any thought I might have for a post today. Here are a few past posts (links at the bottom of this post ) that fit this bill right now as connected to something I discovered today – which I connect to body-brain developmental changes caused by early severe neglect and abuse trauma –
A friend sent me a link to this video today – ASTOUNDING!
This incredible child’s name is Carly – and here is her blog:
And here’s the site for her book:
The video is, I believe, a MUST WATCH for anyone who has experienced severe early trauma who has come to understand that there is much in their trauma-altered experience of living that is connected to a Reactive Attachment Disorder pattern of insecure attachment.
What is the ability to communicate? What is Carly finally able to say about the truth of HER experience on the autism spectrum? What can we SAY about the truth of what happened to us?
I pause here to include links to posts on this blog related, also, to Disorganized-Disoriented Insecure Attachment – all connected to the great branches of what happened to so many of us:
When it comes to thinking about the spectrum that exists between people who are super sensitive on one end and those who are far less sensitive on the other – true also for autism — here are some posts talking about this continuum in connection to Trauma Altered development:
*Allostasis and Allostatic Load — April 12, 2009 This page contains my own working notes written while studying the research of the authors noted below. Please go to my sectionhttps://stopthestorm.wordpress.com/references/ to locate the citation for their work. Be patient, the reference page is a bit slow to load because it contains about 200 text pages of reference material.
I guess I believe that it is often the task of a writer to “think for” our readers. The more there is to know about how the toxic stress caused by early infant and child trauma alters physiological development and causes problems for a lifetime, the more complex the array of combinations of relevant information becomes. I really cannot think of any simple way to explain today how I know there are undoubtedly powerful connections between the experience of being on the autism spectrum and being “on the trauma altered development spectrum.”
So all I can manage to do right now is to encourage a watching of the video I mention above and a scan through one or more of the earlier posts on this blog whose I include here today.
I don’t believe there is anyone out there who will tell us the information we most need to know as trauma altered people. This is true because they really CAN’T tell us. Nobody can process this information for us, really. We have to search for the truths to our own experience for ourselves.
These following blog posts represent only a small few of the many on this topic to be discovered on this blog.
Here is our first book out in ebook format. Click here to view or purchase–
It lists for $2.99 and can be read by Amazon Prime customers without charge. A daring book – for daring readers – about a really tough subject.
“Story Without Words is a forensic biography/autobiography in which the author, Linda Danielson, explores three generations of her family history to help understand the horrific abuse she was subjected to from birth at her mother’s hands. Her mother Mildred had a psychotic break while delivering Linda, her second of six children and the only one of whom she targeted directly for abuse. The delivery culminated in Mildred being convinced that Linda had been sent by the devil to kill her, and until Linda left home at age 18 for boot camp, she was subjected to unrelenting abuse.
“Story Without Words is a creative and compassionate exploration of early factors that may have contributed to Mildred’s abusive trajectory. The author seeks to give words to her experiences as a child abuse survivor; Story Without Words is unique in providing the words of the abuser and the abused in one volume. The author seeks to provide insight for others who were themselves abused, professionals who wish to learn more about the inner world of survivors, and concerned individuals who wish to help stop the storm of child abuse in our society.”
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