Silly me. Of course my healing journey must include peaks and valleys! Healing is not something separate from life. Life certainly has those peaks and those valleys. What was I thinking? I cannot separate out what I choose to accomplish toward my healing from my life itself! “This, Linda, is a ONE THING!”
Night before last was an awful sleepless night – simply AWFUL! Yesterday was no day to “write home about,” either! Now, the day before yesterday was one of the best I have ever had. It is so rare for me to FEEL GOOD for that many hours in a row! And then the dark came – as it does – and BAM!!!!!! There I was in an emotional crisis that lasted nearly 24 hours!
I did not understand – and still don’t – what triggered my crash. I did NOTHING, thought NOTHING that I could track, and certainly did not ask to feel like absolute HELL. And there I had been doing so WELL!
Dang! Seemed pretty unfair to me!
I went hunting in every direction I could think of to find “what I had done wrong” that had created “what had gone wrong,” and I could find nothing. My fall from my state of grace had simply taken me over without explanation!
The best I could come up with was that Shelley Redford Young and Robert O. Young who wrote the book that is my guide to healing, The pH Miracle: Balance Your Diet, Reclaim Your Health left out an important piece of information! Leave it to me. I found it.
These authors describe what they call a physical “healing crisis” that must nearly inevitably erupt for people so drastically changing their lifestyle, especially if they undertake the organic green vegetable juice (I strain mine) cleanse that I am in the middle of. This is what they wrote:
WHAT TO WATCH OUT FOR
“During a cleanse, toxins are dumped from where they’ve been stored in the tissues into the blood so they can be eliminated. This means that for a while your blood is actually dirtier than it started out. You may feel worse before you feel better. Different people experience varying degrees of unpleasantness, or none at all, during this “healing crisis,” which may include nausea, weakness, dizziness, headaches, light-headedness, rashes, bad breath, flu-like symptoms, and fatigue….
“A healing crisis is actually a good sign. But it can be too intense, and therefore discouraging or even harmful. So monitor your progress closely . Some mild discomfort can be expected, but you should not experience undue discomfort. A healing crisis should be short-lived.,,,” (pages 176-177)
As I have mentioned in previous posts I seriously doubt these authors come from the malevolent world of severe early abuse and trauma, so it would be natural for them to “forget” to mention EMOTIONAL healing crisis that must, I believe now, be a natural part of this detoxifying process for we survivors.
I am grateful that last night I went to sleep instantly and slept just fine. Today I am better than fine because I am so aware of how painful the hours of yesterday and the night before were!
I am so determined to accomplish this life change that will enable my body to heal itself that no drift or crash into a healing crisis of emotional HELL is going to keep me from continuing to move forward.
Everyone I know in town today who saw me when I went in to run errands commented on the incredible transformational changes in me! I have lost 20 pounds since the beginning of this month, have a buoyancy in my gait I haven’t felt for over a decade, my spirit shines with new intensity in my eyes, and hope and confidence inform my every spoken word.
What is this? Could this be life?
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