I have written more than a thousand posts (this one is the 1201 post to be exact) during the lifetime of this blog, but never so far have I titled one to match the frontispiece image – IMAGINE until now.
Looking toward the past, looking toward the future – my daughter is days away from the birth now of my 2nd grandson. IMAGINE if that little one came into the world and had no people there to greet him?
And I mean that – children with people – without ‘a people’.
Readers who find this blog and resonate with its words know what that means just as I do – what it means to be born and raised – and then in one’s heart to feel forever more what it is like to always be lonely for ‘our people’.
I say that to myself today loud and clear in my inner places that give silent voice: “I am lonely for ‘my people’.
Who are my people? Where are my people?
I don’t know. But if I did know, and I could find them, I would know THAT because this feeling I always have that I miss them would go away!
I know my people when they post comments on this blog – me and they, we – are one another’s people. I feel that special connection when a special piece of vast empty loneliness is filled as I see myself reflected back in the words of my people.
Infants – from birth – are meant to see their own self reflected back to them by their caregivers, especially their mother – and their father – the infant’s people!
To be cared about and to be cared for – by our people. Didn’t happen to those of us so terrorized, traumatized, and left so alone.
We HAD no people – or very few (I had no one – part of my specialty in life, I guess – but I had the Alaskan wilderness – which counts powerfully in my survival).
Feeling alone in a crowd – said like some kind of familiar cliche – true not for everyone. I don’t believe that it is. Those who say it and know what this feels like – well, there’s no doubt something tragic in their early years – they had no people.
I am simply musing. And imagining. What would it be like if suddenly I FOUND my people as my people FOUND me? Will I ever know in this lifetime?
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