This is a foreign world I live in right now without writing. I must have reached a burnout state without realizing that was where I was headed until I got there. All I can do now is rest my mind and wait to see what happens after the first of the new year.
I am spending a lot of time practicing on my keyboard. I want to learn in 40 hours what I guess it needs to take five years to learn. I am not that patient. I will my mind and my fingers into proper action on these keys.
I can read the music now so that I can write the music for songs. This process fascinates me. I wrote a song today in words and sound — a very strange one. Tomorrow I will show it to my piano teacher. He is able to assist me to understand the patterns in these sounds.
So out-of-reach of words are some of the things I need to say right now. Being able to describe feelings and emotion in sound without words is like entering a new universe that is so familiar yet so very strange. Another language. I needed that.