+TWO STATES OF BEING – PERPETUAL SADNESS VERSUS COMFORT

Maybe those of us who were severely abused as little ones are left to always wonder who our people really are? Here I share a story about those whose lives I wish I could have shared.

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+MORE WORK OUTSIDE ON MY NEW BOUNDARY FENCE

+++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++ I spent the entire day outside working on the far southeast section of the fence I am building.  All the face boards were in this section previously — really in a big heap!  It felt good to work so hard today.  Every emotion was circumvented in my focused determination to complete this project by [...]

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+WORKING ON MY OWN BOUNDARY WALL

Sometimes we have to take small steps to make our life better, making do with what resources we have. For me, getting this wall started is about HOPE.

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+FEELING LIKE THIS

Hanging on – no matter what, we all are connected to the trunk of the tree of life – and – sometimes it’s spring time.

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+DEPRESSION EVEN GETS OUR DREAMING TIME

Dreams, sleep, stress, depression — too much of the wrong kind of dreaming…..

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+INFANT-CHILD ABUSE: WHEN THE BOUGH BREAKS, THE BRAIN CHANGES

Severe infant-child abuse survivors are left to survive mostly on our own, sometimes with supposed assistance from out dated, obsolete theories and treatments. There is a gross mismatch between what our needs truly are and what we are told are our solutions. Nobody is going to figure this out in my lifetime. That doesn’t stop me from trying to understand the rock-bottom truth about what happened to my mother that created the monster she was to me.

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+SOME NIFTY GENERAL INFO

Assorted information post – make sure all kids get counted in this next census (they never have been since 1790 when census began in U.S.A.) – and more…..

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+IS THERE ANY OTHER WAY FOR ME TO ‘BE’ IN THE WORLD?

Is it possible to be very nearly a species of one? That’s how I feel today as I realize that nowhere in the ‘professional’ literature can I find much of a match for my infant-childhood experiences and how I became a changed being as a consequence.

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+LIVING WITH A BODY BUILT WITH SORROW

I think living with the chronic emotional consequences of severe infant-child abuse requires heroic effort. It requires courage. It requires a commitment to those who love us to not find a way to exit the body whose cells retain feeling memories of terror, overwhelming sorrow and trauma.

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+EARLY ATTACHMENT ORIGINS OF EMPATHY

Infant-childhood trauma and abuse happens because there is something wrong with the empathy abilities of perpetrators. What can we learn about these empathy patterns — and how they can be transmitted to offspring?

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